ang hilig ko sa joke pero d ako makasakay minsan

hello... Uhmmm... time? 10:29-PM.. yah! wala lng... here again... posting my new thoughsts here in my blog.. read nio po title q? uhmmm heheheh.. thts my title.. coz i will share my other side wen i cant ride some jokers!!

letss.. start... Uhmmm... ang 22o.. ang saya tlga ng jokess.! ang saya ng arw mo pg my jokes... part na lng lyf ntn yan ehhh!! d na tlga mwawala.... bt sometimes.. jokes can be a pain.... hurt feelings ba.. ung tipong aasarain ka..! d ka ttgilan.. hnggng mgkkgalit kau.. mg aaway..iiyak.. or sometimes...nauuwi pa sa away...un ung time na... d mo na kaya.. d mo na masakyan ung mga jokes ot wt ever na mga pngungulit at pang aasar sau.. speciall w/ u frndss!!! weeee!! ok... lets proceed to my own...

.... i really love jokes.. i really love funny jokes... love ko dn mang asar! mngulet! mangloko.. at lht pa ng kalokohan.. mga kalokohan pa na mnsan mya hlong grin jokes!! hahaha.. i remmber.. gnyn kmi plgi ngaun sa mga present frnds q! tipong kwen2han.. and then my double meaning na pla.. whahahaha.. ang saya nun!! pero.. wag ka.. aehehehe...when the case is.. aq na ung target... ako ung npiling asarin.. kulitin... .. weeee.. then nagkataon.. wala aq s mood...booom!!! un aq sasabog aq sa sbrng asar at inis... d nmn ung tipong nag wawala... pero im the kind na pg napuno na.. i need to bck-out i need 2 g0... kc d q kaya na mglit ng todo sa harap nila.. so i prepare to be alone.. umalis.. iwan cla panandalian.. then pg ok na.. i will say sorry... gnun lng aq... un ung mga time na pg d q na kayang maki ride sa knila.. nid 2 be alone.. and mkkta nila na im quiet... na tipong mejo badtrip na ung mkha... hhehehe... peace!! d nmn aq nangangain pg glit ehhh! hehehehe

So... thats my mirror of my self... so i prepare to be alone... to go! to live and mg back-out muna... mdli dn aq mainiz... bt... mdali dn un maalis... d aq mhilig mgtanim ng galit.. i set my mind na pg my kaaway.. better to say sorry... lalo na pg fault q.. pg tipong d nmn aq.. .. i cn treat him/her nice prin...but d na gaya ng dti.. hhehehehe...

wt more i cn say... pwd kau mg joke skin.. msya nga yun.. but limit it... kc my mga jokes na pg sbra nah! mapapaiyak nio na aq nun.. and mgglit na aq.. sounds like a child... pero yun aq.. sbhn man na maarte... pero my weakness is my tears... mbilis aq umiyak sa mga bagay bagay! so im a senti person! mdling mhbag,.. maawa.. mlulungkutin..! yun na lht aq.... lungkot ng buhay q noh... la lng.. gehh... lumalayo na ang kwen2 q ehhh.. till nxt time... nyte^^tnxs mga readers! kung mern man.. if wala.. thnks padn.. ahheehhe peace 2 all!

Goodluck.......for everything

Thank you for everything...for taking away my insecurities,for showing me that people do love me for who I am,for making me understand that people I love will hurt me but it doesn't necessarily mean they love me any less, and that when they do hurt me, it is possible to forgive, forget and move on with life,for making me realize it is possible to trust again after getting hurt. Thank you too for giving me the most painful lesson in my life thus far...that the moment you love someone you have given him the capacity to hurt you, that how much you hurt is equal to how much you have loved, that getting hurt is proportionate to having too many expectations. Thank you for accepting me and allowing me enough room to grow at the same time...for inspiring me and making me want to become a better person. Thank you for being there when I needed you for the silly and the serious moments,for making me laugh, smile and cry all at the same time,for holding my hand when I'm nervous or scared,for giving me a hug and wiping away my tears when I'm sad or confused, for never failing to make me feel better no matter how down or how depressed I've become,for unselfishly sharing my joys and my happiness. Most of all, thank you for making me feel special, for making me feel loved, even if it was so ambiguous and so fleeting I was hardly conscious about it.

I'm sorry things had to come to this.. I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you after all, and I wasn't supposed to expect anything to come out of our playing pretend either. But even if everything got so painful, I'm still glad to have known you, to have had you in my life even for just a short while. I've heard people say that while some good things never last others don't even start, I guess that fits us exactly...we could have been good together...good for each other, but then since we never really gave ourselves a chance, things had ended before they even began.

I'm letting you go, I'm letting us go. I've finally accepted that this is the way things would have to be, that i should allow us both to be free enough to seek whatever it is that will truly make us happy. Even if it isn't with each other.

I must admit you probably won't be too far away from my thoughts, and that thinking of you will still bring that tinge of sadness and regret. But I'm okay. I will be okay. Loving again may take awhile though. For now, I'd concentrate on healing myself, on making myself complete on my own, so that when the right one finally comes, I'll be able to give myself to him as I would have wanted to give myself to you.

Wherever my life may lead us from here...good luck!

Best Memories and experience in mY Life...

...I was in d middle of nothing wen i remember something lols..hayys la akung magwa na nmn chet wentuhan ku na lng kayu...wen i was in 1st yr HS mga 11 yrs old ata aku nun..mabait pako dati ei until now but di na ganun kabait nyahaha:P den actually haha since elementary.. palang
magisa naku umuwi nun se mas gs2 kong maranasan ung tumayo sa mga sariling paa. bwaahaha...5 palang pamshe nun tas sipag aku pumasok direcho uwi (bait ku no...lol)..den der was a tym na pag tanghali d me ko mxdong gumagastos pra sa pagkain... kc mejo kapos sa baon.. hehe..tapos my isang isang insident na never kong nkalimutan baket?? haha se malake naku ng marealise ku na angels ang nksama ko..nakausap ko...at nkasbay kong pauwi..kaya pala taka ko nun hehe...se ganitu yun nag aabang aku ng jip pauwi sa bahay la akung ksbay se mailap aku sa tau heheheh lols den may nagstop over na isang jip sa harap ku di ku namn pinara un den my tumwag sa name sabi.."Bernadette"..tara dto sakay ka na..." pag kakita ku guy ung tumwag cympre aku bata malay ku ba khit di ku kilala sakay aku lol inde se akala ko kilala ko sya pag sakay ku nagulat aku se kala ku magisa lng cya but ngkamli aku mga 5 ata sila nun 3 girls and 2 boys den pag tingin ko nakangiti lahat sken magbabayd sana ku pero sbi saken "wag na Bernadette bayad ka na kanina pa..." nagpasalamat namn aku isa pang pinagtataka ko kilala nila ko...den shy type aku ei hehe di ko sila kinakausp se hiya aku pero naiilang aku se nakatingin silang lahat saken tas nakatawa (nga pala suot nila wyt parang nursing student...) tapos ngslita ung girl "tara dto bernadette tabi ka sken.." aku namn lapit aku umupo ako sa tabi nya den nginitian aku.. dpt nga hindi me lalapit.. pero parang may bumulong skin na lumapit lng dw ako sa kanya...then un na.. lumapit tlga ako.. ung feeling na as in ang gaan gaan ng pkiramdam ko sa knila......hinimas aku lol sa buhuk sabay salita cya "eto c bernadette mabait toh eh matalino pa..." shocks ako se inde ko tlga sila kilala pero
ngiti pa rin ako khit kabado...den nagslita ung guy "oo matalino yan di ba 1st yr HS ka and ikw ung nag top 2 sa section nio??" nyahaha napatawa ako sabi ko "opo.." tapus tapus....nung malapit na sa haus hinimas ulit aku
nung girl na katabi ko habang ung iba naka smile sken.."basta bernadette pakabait ka lage ha kaibigan mo kame..." den ayun na nagulat na namn aku se alm nila haus ko i mean kung san aku bababa nagslita ulit ung isa "oh bernadette kami na magpapara ingat ka ha pakabait ka..." den nagulat aku se sakto sa bababaan ko ung pinarahan nila pag baba ko ng jip tinignan ko sila nagwave lahat den nagsmile...
nyahaha la lang wentoh ko lang piling ko angel sila and winiwish kong makita ulet but imposible na hehe se nga di na ko ganun kabaet bwahaha salamat sa mga nagtyagang magbasa sa uulitin :P ingats poh....mahal ko kayu...sana nga maranasan ko ulit un... and im lucky to experience that memories tlaga.. d ko po un makakalimutan... actually... d ko pa yan nk-kwn2 kht knino... but dz tym.. naalala ko sya bigLa...